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Flowers are restful to look at They have neither emotions nor conflicts.

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an independent & private writer & artist Always open for commissions, art trades, or just chatting, but please read my boundaries first.

dreamed up by Jackson
^{( 22 / Any, All / Law Student & Psychology Degree )}

&. Boundaries

( I ) DO NOT INTERACT     _{There are a couple groups of people I do not wish to interact with. This list includes: Racist, Nazis, Proshippers, Endo Systems & their supporters, people who refuse to communicate with their friends when they have an issue, TCC, under 15, Pro Israel Supporters, "Lesboys" & their supporters, people who refuse to acknowledge some people get busy and you continue to pester/get mad at them.}

( II ) WHEN INTERACTING     _{Be aware that I am a very busy, and uptight person. I am a full time law student, part time worker, and can get very busy very easily. I have trouble keeping up with replies and relationships. I promise I am trying, but it can be hard. I suffer from ASPD, and it takes me a while to get back to some messages, especially because I have extreme memory loss.}

( III ) PINGS, DM'S & INVITES     _{I am 100% okay with being pinged, dm'd and invited to places, servers, or games for any reason as long as you have asked me before hand and explained why.}

( IV ) MY ASPD     _{My ASPD (Anti-Social Personality Disorder) is a very heavy part of me and I am incredibly open with having it. I can seem distant and aloof when first talking, and I can come across as mean or rude when I really don't intend to. Many people have said I give off a weird aura when first meeting, and that I don't seem aware enough. This is all stuff I can't really control, and it takes me a while to become close and get attached to people. ASPD is a result of genetics and childhood trauma, and I have a very rough time opening up to others. Please don't take it personality, it just takes some poking and prodding to get me to open up and speak.}

( V ) MY D.I.D.     _{My D.I.D is also a heavy part of me. My mind from intense childhood trauma has split, and I'm still not fully recognizing that I have it. I have incredibly bad memory because of the alters, and if I forget to respond to you, or forget something you told me don't take it personally. I really do try, and I tend to write things down in a notebook to help me remember things. My alters are pretty good at trying to keep track of everything, and amnesia barriers are there, but we try to keep them as invisible to our friends as possible.}

( VI ) ISSUES WITH ME     _{If you ever in any capacity have an issue with me PLEASE TELL ME! Time and time again I make friends only for them to be mentally 14 and not tell me when something is upsetting them. If you cannot communicate with someone about an issue in your friendship then do not interact with me. I will no longer keep these people around and help them. If I ever do something that upsets you, hurts your feelings, or you got a weird vibe from, you can talk to me about it and tell me. I am very open to criticism, and as long as it was not hidden for years on end, and I am in a decent mood, I am open to listening.}

( VII ) TRIGGERS     _{My triggers are very few and far between. The main thing I ask is DO NOT SEND ME PICS OF IRL SPIDERS! They send me into extreme panic attacks, and I will be blocking people who do this to me, as I make it explicitly clear to not do this. Other than that I don't really have any triggers. This can change day to day, and it depends on the alter in front, but talking to me about anything else is okay.}

( VIII ) BELIEFS     _{I am a very opinionated and strong willed person, even stubborn when it comes to some things. This includes things like: all major religions are harmful, men, including transmen should not be in women/non-men spaces, fictionkins to a point are incredibly harmful, otherkins and therians are valid and not harming anyone, furries are cool, NSFW is just fine/not harmful to anyone, I don't support proshippers/darkshippers and liking that stuff is weird, depending on the disorder I don't support self-diagnosing it, and I don't support people who think you can have a trauma disorder without trauma (endo-systems, Free PTSD ect) I also do not want you near me if you have friends like this, or support these people, but aren't them.}

( IX ) MY SERVER     _{If you have access to my discord server link, then you on some level are probably a friend of mine, or at least know me to a certain extent. My server is just meant to be a casual hangout place to chat, and meet people. Because I expect this place to be a safe space, if you make me incredibly uncomfortable or someone important to me uncomfortable, I am quick to soft ban you. My server isn't overly important but I would rather have it be a safe space than an unsafe space for me and my friends. Other than that anyone is allowed to join and feel free to make yourself comfortable there!}

( X ) ART TRADES     _{My art trades are usually always open, and free for the taking! I love doing art trades, and enjoy planning them out, I just have trouble coming into DM's to ask. All I ask if you want to art trade is to match me on the quality (you want a full body? Do one for me. Full colored? Same for me. Just a sketch? I'll do a sketch too!) Anyone of any skill is allowed to ask, I always say yes IF I have the time for them, and don't send people away just because of their skill level.}

( XI ) COMMISSIONS     _{My commissions are always open. If you wish to commission me the best way to do that is my Ko-Fi. If you have other forms of payment, or wish to contact me about something important, you can head to my socials and find other ways to contact me. The best way is to reach out to me on discord @nettlebrand.}

A.M.
^{( Main Host )
    Angery and Atypically Violent, does not get along well with Phen, the two ten to clash. Is in system dating Hauster, who tends to keep him in check. Usually the one in front, and does his best to keep everything in check and order.}

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Hauster.
^{( Secondary Host. )
    Often fronting with A.M. A more peaceful, but neutral leaning alter. Is more artistic and self-attached to nature in its whole. Tends to not front alone, but sometimes will when pulled to front. Is very tone deaf and neutral when speaking and typing.}

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N.Y.X.
^{( Social Alter. )
    Is the alter that does a lot of the casual social conversations we hold onto. He's pretty charismatic and has the best memory out of all the main fronters. Tends to take long breaks away from front.}

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Phen.
^{( Second Main Host. )
    Secondary Host & is the complete oppisite of A.M. Is a more chaotic and unnatural with his interactions. He can come across as rude when he doesn't mean to. Is in system dating Pursuer who tries to help him.}

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Amalthea.
^{( Primary Co-fronter. )
    Is the main co-fronter and is often always in co-front. She tends to keep the other alters playing nice, and is the main source of peace in headspace. Very sweet and overly kind, which is why she hardly fronts alone.}

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Pursuer.
^{( Social Protecter. )
    Pursuer fronts randomly depending on the situation, but he's overly friendly and kind when he does, and tends to want to deescalate situations he's around. A bit feral from trauma.}

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Butcher.
^{( PTSD Protecter. )
    Butcher fronts periodically to prevent panic attacks and breakdowns. He's part of the reason memory gaps can be so big between periods of time where we struggle emotionally. He's kind, but socially awkward when talking to people. .}

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Fridge.
^{( Psychosis Protector. )
    Fridge formed as a coping mechanism to prevent our psychosis from kicking in when our body runs through our medication to quickly. He can come across as weird and obtuse, but means well when communicating.}

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Mr. Shade.
^{( Sensory Protector. )
    Mr. Shade or Shade fronts to prevent sensory overload, mostly for smell and hearing. He has an eccentric, over the top personality and enjoys being difficult. He comes across as weird, and trickery like. He split during a car accident, and made his own role.}

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Slappy.
^{( Work Protector. )
    Slappy formed through extreme stress while at work. He often fronts/takes over when we are working extremely hard, or are actually at work. He's incredibly agitated, easy to annoy, and is quite snappy with others.}

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HAL.
^{( Main Memory Collector. )
    Hal is the main memory holder, and controls and archives most of our memories, and daily activities. Because of his constant need to be aware, and see what we are doing, he hates sleeping and is the core of most of our insomnia.}

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A.U.T.O.
^{( Intrusive Memories Watcher. )
    A.U.T.O. is a semi-hidden alter that doesn't really like other people. His main job is to watch our intrusive thoughts, and help organize our memories. He's hateful and can tend to be a little angry when fronting, so he tends not to. He's happiest hidden in our memoires.}

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Fabrication.
^{( Memory Organizer. )
    Fabrication helps Hal in the background of our mind, and organizes most of our memories on what is and isn't important. He is constantly somewhere in front, "collecting" them and moving them aside. He front's when we need to go nonverbal.}

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O.V.E.R
^{( Memory Protector. )
    *O.V.E.R. is an alter that tends to appear and reappear based on how he's feeling. He more or less "guards" our memories and holds a lot of the emotional regulation when it comes to unearthing those memories. He portrays himself as emotionless for a coping mechanism, but sometimes talks to others. *}

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0. 4. 9.
^{( Memory Healer. )
    0.4.9. is a hidden back end alter that watches over and repairs memories that might have been altered by our psychosis or pseudo- memories. He doesn't front to often, and tends to want to be alone in the back of headspace.}

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Styks.
^{( Car Crash/Mafia Holder. )
    Styks is a shy, not very open alter that formed from extreme mistrust in others. He holds a lot of our avoidant attachment style, and doesn't really like to communicate with others. He would prefer to be alone and it's rare to speak with him.}

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The Hanged King.
^{( Public Reputation Holder. )
    The Hanged King is an older, semi shy alter that tends to hide from front, but is very communicative towards other alters. Most of his work is helping other alters and upholding our reputation with others as a result of our NPD. Probably holds most of our NPD. Will rarely front alone.}

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JX1DX1.
^{( Bad Friendship Holder. )
    JX1DX1 is our second persecutor, and tends to be more aggressive and outgoing with his anger. He formed through extreme stress of bad friendships, and refusals of communication, as well as people ignoring information. He's easy to agitate, but can communicate if wanted or needed.}

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Vie.
^{( Human Torture Holder. )
    Vie has most of our human experimentation, human torture, and cannibalistic trauma with them. She tends to be very angsty on who can and cannot talk about it near her. She sometimes enjoys talking about it and sometimes doesn't. Be cautious of her flip flop emotions.}

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Vox.
^{( Hypersexual Holder. )
    Vox formed years ago, and is the main holder of most of our sexual trauma. While many of our alters will make sexual jokes, he tends to be the cause of the most outrageous ones. He's kind of shy and embarrassed to talk, so don't expect him to front often.}

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Benedict.
^{( Dormant Alter. )
    Benedict is a partially dormant alter that hasn't fronted in a while. He tends to only front when we are splitting (ASPD) and then vanishes once again.}

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Percy.
^{( Trauma Held Alter. )
    Percy is an alter that formed during extreme conditioning of the torture I went through. He is non-verbal, and animalistic in his actions. He can't type, so he will never be online to talk.}

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Galia.
^{( Nostalgic Alter. )
    Galia is a very very old, most likely one of the original splits from the mind, alters. She holds a lot of our nostalgic ideas, and ideas. She has not fronted in a long time, but her presence seems to somewhat still be around.}

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Laughing Jack.
^{( request only. )
    LJ formed year ago, sometime along with Phobos. He holds a lot of our love for childlike, teenage things we used to do. He doesn't front often, if at all, and most of his work tends to be in the background of headspace. Nice when talking but can be perceived as weird.}

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Phobos.
^{( primary. )
    Phobos split years ago as apart of our school shooting trauma. He front often enough for everyone to be aware of who he is, but tends to vanish for long periods of time. He's an organizer, and tries to keep everyone in check in serious situations. He's not very friendly to others.}

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